而我的崇拜將變得寂寞

我親愛的 Chris,

雖然我們不常聯絡，見面的時候都在亂講話，不正經的亂開玩笑。但我慶幸著你願意停下來，試著讀懂我。其實我知道，自己不是適合做好朋友的那種人。
每一次與我心愛的靈魂告別，都是令我傷心的時刻。我當然知道你只是在遠方，但是下一次當我看了好電影，讀了一本好書，想起你時，那物理的距離終將讓我難以吞嚥。
可是我當然為你的旅程高興。去一個還不知道的城市漫遊，去與世界辯駁，也許喜歡，也許忿恨，也許遇到發亮的靈魂，去經過別人的生命，或被別人的生命經過，這都是很好的事。

所以如果我會想念你，那就讓他發生。因為我們都會成為更好的人。

我只是害怕，你是我的鏡子。我們是決心胡鬧的共謀者，經常闖進彼此的思想，好發爭論。當你遠行，我就掉了一把鑰匙。
那天看著你坐在我面前，說起我們不願妥協而去的樣貌，那麼安靜而輕微地，心疼又慌張。生命裡各自的難題讓我們自顧不暇，可是如果回頭總能望見彼此，那風浪縱使排山倒海而來，我們也會嬉鬧的決心一闖。可是你的選擇，當然都是你的旅程，就像你的賭局我本不該插手干預。也許我只是不願世界消磨掉你，盛放的靈魂。

可是，你記不記得，那年你對我說，你是能寫也應該寫的人。

Chris，你不適合做隕落的星，那為什麼不就留在天上好好發光？

我其實沒有說服你留下的任何理由，我只知道創作是我們唯一的出口，唯一能讓腦子裡快速翻飛喧嘩吵鬧的噪音，安靜下來的辦法。

結果我還是叨叨絮絮地講了這麼多，其實我只是想跟你說，好好享受旅程，平安並做一個快樂的人。

想念我時，好不好，留一些字句給我。

剩下的，好男孩，等你回來再說吧。

Ten decisions shape your life,

You'll be aware of 5 about,

7 ways to go through school,

Either you're noticed or left out,

7 ways to get ahead,

7 reasons to drop out,

When I said 'I can see me in your eyes',

You said 'I can see you in my bed',

That's not just friendship that's romance too,

You like music we can dance to,

Sit me down,
Shut me up,
I'll calm down,
And I'll get along with you,

There is a time when we all fail,
Some people take it pretty well,
Some take it all out on themselves,
Some they just take it out on friends,
Oh everybody plays the game,
And if you don't you're called insane,

Don't don't don't don't it's not safe no more,
I've got to see you one more time,
Soon you were born,
In 1984,

Sit me down,
Shut me up,
I'll calm down,
And I'll get along with you,

Everybody was well dressed,
And everybody was a mess,
6 things without fail you must do,
So that your woman loves just you,
Oh all the girls played mental games,
And all the guys were dressed the same,

Why not try it all,
If you only remember it once,
Oooh ooooooh,

Sit me down,
Shut me up,
I'll calm down,
And I'll get along with you.

(okay one more time)